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Sunday, March 2nd, 2008
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10:50 am
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Well it's been an interesting few days. Luckily my children have been spared the change, but my wife and I...I suppose one could say I'm the wife now instead of the husband.
However, I won't let this current status of my body affect my dream! I must admit that it's taking time getting used to dancing in an entirely new body. I'm not the only one, and I do find comfort in that. Our play is supposed to be going on later this week, but I've no idea if that will work now. The female characters are now male, and vice versa. Plus we're all horrible at our routines now. Still, we will try. The show must go on!
At least I can still play my piccolo. I thought it might be difficult as far as making sure my fingers hit correctly, but they haven't slimmed down much, so I can manage.
I think during this time we must all stay calm and stick together. I know my wife and I have had to make sure to not act irrational because we don't want to frighten the children. It's strange enough for them that some of their friends have been affected. I'll not have their home life seem strange as well.
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| Saturday, January 26th, 2008
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10:31 pm - My Response
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I've come to wonder about the world. Through my music and dance, I've grown to be more creative, and release that creativity that was inside me. Sometimes it's not all pretty. I always find it beautiful. Expressing yourself is a beautiful thing. Having a view on the world, on anything in particular, is beautiful in it's own way.
So why must there be people who have to try and ruin that expression? You may find it obscene, or rude, or whatever words you wish to throw out, but that's you. And yes, there may be a group of you, but it's still not everyone. It's not me, and it's not my friend's, and it's not the entire world. There are many people who would say it's not obscene, it's not near rude, but that it's funny or pretty or polite, any number of well-meant words.
Of course I can't say it's okay for me to have my view and that it's wrong to have yours. No, it's good that you have your own opinion. Express it. But don't try and trample mine down in the process. Don't shut me down, don't picket, don't scream or throw some anger fit. If you ask for something of me, be prepared for me to say what I think. Don't knock me down if you don't like it. State your opinion back, but do it with some courtesy.
The world is too many times a place where people are supposed to express themselves, whether because they want to, they feel that burning need in their hearts, or because they're asked. Yet when they give it, someone stomps them down. Don't give me barriers, give me room to be free.
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| Saturday, December 22nd, 2007
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10:10 am
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I enjoy the holiday season. So many people are cheerful, and so many more people come and see performances. The place has been nearly packed each night of a performance. Seeing so many people...it's like a dream come true. My wife and children saw us perform last night.
The only thing I don't like is that money is tight this year. It seems to be tight every year, but we're feeling it more now. If I thought it'd make quite a lot of money I'd play my piccolo on the street. Of course my wife would be so embarassed. However, the holidays is about being together. There are a few presents under the tree. I just feel so bad that I can't offer my family everything they want.
Please everyone, stay safe and enjoy the time together! That's what is really important.
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| Sunday, November 18th, 2007
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3:23 pm
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Ryou, I'm sorry it's been so long to get back to you. Work and dreams seem to have gotten between my journal and I.
I've spoken to a few people, and there's a small group of strings that would be delighted to play at the wedding. I do believe it's exactly what you're looking for. They're very good, and strings are so beautiful. Please let me know if this works.
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| Sunday, October 7th, 2007
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9:32 am
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It's been so busy lately. Both the kids got the flu a few weeks back, and I'm just getting over it as well. That meant no dancing as work took up all of my energy. I feel like part of my soul didn't get to breath while I was away from the dance floor. I couldn't even play my picollo. I'm still not completely better, but I'm well enough to at least dance around the house.
I hope none of you catch the flu. It beats you down, that's for sure.
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| Monday, August 6th, 2007
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8:50 pm
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Kaori and her husband came over today. My little grandbaby wasn't with them; she was with Miki. I know they were going out to dinner after they visited and couldn't have the baby with them at the restaurant, but I would have loved to see him. They'll be bringing her to the musical that will start next week. I'm so excited to have them come.
This is going to be one of our best performances, I know it. Unfortunately Kyo won't be able to perfrom. He fell during rehearsals over the weekend and broke his hip. As we grow older we have to get more careful. I know I can't move as quick as I once did, but I still can't give up on my dreams. Even if my apartment is tiny and not in the best part of town, I'm so happy now. Even Kaori is happy that I continued with my dancing. That means so much from my little girl...even if she isn't so little anymore. She's a grown woman, all married.
If only her brother took after her. I was hoping Reichi would settle down, but he has to do what he feels is right. I'd never want my children to do anything different. I wish he would visit more, but he still seems upset about me and Miki. One day he'll understand, I hope.
Please, if you aren't doing anything next week, continue coming down to the Little Theater to watch our musical. We've all put so much work into this production. It's special.
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| Wednesday, July 25th, 2007
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9:53 pm
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To hear about the attack today frightens me. If it could happen to someone so rich, with so much security, it could happen to anyone. I heard about it while I was at work. It made me think of my children, and my wife. They were safe, but still, I worry. We don't have the money. We don't have the security.
I don't think I'll be dreaming of dance tonight.
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| Wednesday, May 23rd, 2007
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7:13 pm
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I had it again. That dream, the one with the little clouds just tickling my fingertips. The clouds hold my most favorite dreams. Dancing, twirling and bending and leaping with such grace I can't imagine anyone looking like that. But I suppose that's what dreams are for; to see the perfect that you want to be, even if you can't be that beautiful sight.
My wife snoring, a cry or a shake or an "I'm scared" from one of the children, rips me from the strange warmth of the sky.
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| Monday, February 26th, 2007
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8:20 am
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I never considered myself much an actor. Not that I don't act, but I tend to with my body when I'm dancing, or with the tune of my piccolo. But with words...it's different, but I have to say this environment is really making things challenging. I'm still a little confused on what all happened.
I miss my children, and my wife, and I searched a while for a phone to call them before realizing there wouldn't be one here. My wife will be so upset when I get back, wondering where I am. I just hope my son and daughter are okay. At least I have some pictures of them in my pocket.
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| Saturday, February 24th, 2007
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11:05 am
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The party is tonight and I'm very excited. I'm trying to get all my practicing in the morning and early afternoon so that I can make it on time. And of course the kids want to do things. Kaori wants to go to the park and Reichi wants to go to the game center. Unfortunately they aren't exactly right by each other. The game center is by one of the studios I go to for dance class, so...perhaps I can have Miki take Kaori and I can take Reichi. Then he can watch daddy dance.
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| Saturday, February 3rd, 2007
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8:26 am
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It's been some time since I've had a moment to sit at the computer and post. Kaori, my daughter, has been on the home computer quite a bit playing games. She hasn't been doing much dancing lately. I know Miki says that that's part of growing up, and she'll be doing her own things, but I can't help but feel a little sting. It's hard to see my little baby girl growing up. If I could I'd keep her a little pint-sized dancer forever.
Reichi is now daily asking for a drum set. Apparently one of his friends has one. It's one of those small, child sets. Of course I want to encourage any love for music he might have, but drums...Miki and I don't think we, or our neighbors, could handle that. We're in a good living situation now and don't want to do anything to ruin it.
As for me, I've been working a lot, trying to do my best. I've spent a lot of time practicing my dancing and piccolo playing as well. There's this little routine I've been practicing where I can play my piccolo as well. It's a very simple routine, but one must start small and work their way up. I also heard that there's going to be a new dance class. I want to look into it, only I don't know if I'll have the time. If it's good I might have to drop one of my other classes. There are a few I could stand to drop, I think, since I've gotten a lot down. I'll just have to see.
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| Wednesday, January 10th, 2007
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6:25 am
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I had not expected to wake up and there be snow on the ground. Kaori and Reichi are quite excited, but my wife and I are not excited as much. Snow is very beautiful, of course, but it's not as beautiful if I'm having to be indoors for work. If only I could dance outside today! Or perhaps play a tune in the park, the snow falling around me (if it still continues to snow). Instead I'm off to be a zombie in that cave they call a work station. Perhaps I'll leave a little early to enjoy the outside.
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| Saturday, January 6th, 2007
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8:14 pm
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So this is LiveJournal. This is what Satoshi spends all his free time on at work. There are such better things to do! I tend to use my breaks stretching. One must do stretches properly and frequently to keep their body in good shape. So many injuries occur that could have been prevented if the person only stretched.
I would like to say hello to everyone, though. And a word of advice: No matter what anyone says, even if they're so very close to you, never give up your dream. One day I will complete mine...to be the best jazz dancer and piccolo player I can be! Soon the name Panik will be in lights, and there I'll be, jazz hands and perfectly flexed feet on the stage.
I better be off to practice my piccolo playing. I won't improve without practice. But first...
( A message to my dream. )
current mood:  artistic
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